From the moment Kaila was born, I knew my world had changed. Kaila was the ultimate gift that the Lord had given me and she was ultimately is world and my everything. Her Father and I were thrusted into the roles of Mommy and Daddy, and although we have enjoyed every moment, we have also learned a lot.

I look back over the past five years and in many ways it makes me sad. Sad for all the things I didn’t do right and sad for all the things I could have done better. I often reflect on my past and in doing so it gives me a chance to learn, which helps me to change for the better.

The past five years seems to be a blur. I look back and thnk about all the joy and the love I have for her. I would give the world for her, although in many ways I didn’t.

Those eyes, those ears, her tiny hands, and her tiny body. I feel so guilty as if somehow I’ve missed the past five years. It all went fast, way too fast. I didn’t grow up enough and didn’t do it in time.

As a young mother I could have never appreciated the gift I was given. It pains me now as a mother to think about what has happened. Those years seem so long ago and I can never get them back. All I can do now is look forward. Young mothers don’t have it easy. We don’t know it all but we think we do.

Young mothers are special in that they love so deeply for their children, yet are still somewhat of a child themselves. Young mothers need nurturing and time to grow. To reflect on their experience as a mother and the experience of what it was and what it can and will be.

As a young mother I’ve learned that you can never give up.

No matter how much it hurts.

I’ve learned that you can’t always win.

I’ve learned that kisses are magical and can heal any wound.

As a young mother I’ve learned that admitting my mistakes is not a weakness.

I’ve learned that time may heal wounds, but not all.

What I’ve learned most is…

Change is growth! No matter how young you are.

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