It’s been a long time since I just sat and wrote for the blog. The last year without a doubt has changed this nation. Our life has also changed greatly. We moved back to Oregon, I didn’t write about it. I guess I forgot how therapeutic just writing has been for me. I started this blog so many years ago. After I went to work for Disney I just fell out of love with this whole thing. I mean I made poverty wages working for a large corporation and yet it felt so unauthentic of me to promote all of that. So I just stopped entirely. Not making a living wage for those two years really did change my outlook on life and what I want to do with this space. I started this blog writing about organic foods and working with small mom run businesses. I’ve always stuck by those values but I’ve also sold out….a lot. Now Disney won’t even send me their free movie boxes because I dared to share the truth of what my life is.
So in this coming year I just want to come back here to this space that I call home, my blog. A lot has changed. Leaving that job at Disneyland how it changed my life for the good was the best thing I ever did. We moved back to Oregon. My marriage had so many struggled for the last ten years. This blog, growing older, raising our children. We did it all in this place. I wrote about it all and gained a huge following here. The world has changed though, everyone is on Instagram now.
I have changed.
Oh how I have changed.
A year ago a long term pr contact told me I basically sucked. That my writing sucked and that I lost all effort for this. She wasn’t wrong. It helped me realize that while I filled this space with sponsored opportunities I truly lost myself along the way.
I don’t know what will become of me and this blog but I love to create, that won’t change. I just want to be truly honest and I’m sorry that I felt trapped behind those opportunities. That I had to be a certain way to get them or to fit in or for people to like me. I really began to suck so I took a year away from this place that I call home. Now I’m ready for whatever the future may bring.
I can’t believe my girls are also almost 16, 12 and 9. 2021 we are here and I am forever grateful for the journey.
Our family now :
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